Dear Sarah Lamar,
It's been another amazingly sweet month with you!
You've gotten so grown up over night. The silver lining is
that you've grown increasingly fond of your papa and he's grown
increasingly fond of you and now Annie's even enjoying engaging with you (on
Annie's terms). The timing is great because as much as I love you, you've started wearing me out
a lot more. Do NOT mistake this for griping. I adored having you to myself for the first half year of her life.
And your tummy issues have largely subsided.
You've gotten even more good natured than you were, if you can believe it. I just love you to pieces.
Even though (always surprisingly to me) I still don't feel like time is
moving TOO fast, it does seem crazy how the milestones have started to
come nearly on top of each other, so differently than with your brother and sister. You rolled early-ish and it did take several months after that for you to sit unassisted but you wanted to SO badly for so long and then I don't think she were sitting by herself but for a few weeks when you
first started crawling. (I
recently remembered when Annie started crawling. I laughed so hard
thinking about it because you did it TEN weeks earlier than she did.) And now you are PULLING UP.
Your sleeping has improved like whoa. You take two very solid naps a
day and have a somewhat predictable routine which is DELIGHTFUL. Your
night time sleep is still touch and go but- and this is probably
unusual- the naps are way more important to me (a lot of that has to do
with Papa's schedule and how independent the big kids are and how I can sleep in
when I need to). And you go to sleep for the night relatively easily
most nights and go down for naps easily. I nurse you every time but you've started not falling all the way asleep and will go down awake and
soothe yourself. Sometimes you even wake up happy and play a bit! I
don't want to knock sleep training too hard and I'm sure I'd resort to
it if it was the price of my sanity, but I'm so grateful that with you and Graves I've been able to just give y'all the space to figure it out
(we did some low key "getting on a routine" type stuff with Annie but
she was an excellent sleeper). Partly CIO just makes my anxiety out of
control but I also just have loved letting you guys do your own thing and
not worrying about a schedule. It's one more thing I don't have to
micromanage and worry I'm doing "wrong". Systems are so life giving to
me in many cases, but with infants (and really with kids' sleep) it's
nice to release myself from it.
What have you been up to?
You love being outside so much. One of your favorite things is when we
hang your doorway jumper on a door to the outside and you're have
inside, half outside. Probably your very favorite, though, is your swing
in the backyward that Papa hung up for you. It's been such a mild
Winter and we've already got some great use out of that bubblegum pink
swing. It's been so nice outside (in the seventies some days!) so we've really been enjoying it!
Speaking of warm weather, I recently
put you in the sweetest little bubble with ducks on it for the last
time. It is one of the few things I bought for Annie at a boutique and I
don't think I paid full price, but I may have. I loved the little
vintage apron style and how soft it is and the buttery yellow and the
sweet ducks. My style has changed in some ways and I really dislike some
of the stuff I picked for her but I love this one every bit as much as I
did then. Annie actually never wore it- not once. It was too big her
first Summer and too small her second (she did wear a good handful of 6
mo. things when she was between twelve and fifteen months). And every
time I reached for it this Summer for you, the minky dots just
seemed like they'd be uncomfortable in the Mississippi heat. But we
finally got our money's worth and you wore it so much in September and
October. If I had it to do over I'd do it this way- a lot fewer things
that I just adore and that's my goal going forward. When you wore it,
Graves would say "she's her own lovie". I know it's completely inappropriate for January, and silly as it is, I
felt completely rebellious and even a little scandalous putting you in
it. I'm usually a stickler for this kind of thing and it gives me an HSP
skin crawl when I see like a linen dress in February. BUT, it's seventy
five degrees and sticky and more importantly, I knew it was my last
chance to see you in it. One I didn't think I'd have. So when I saw it in
the closet and realized I was being given a bonus day, I was just so thrilled.
It's been a mild Winter, but it's also been a sick Winter. We were hit
with a stomach bug and I was hopeful that the six million times a
day that you still nurse would give you some great immunity and that I
paid my vom dues sufficiently the entirety of my pregnancy with her. My
hoping was not in vain- we both managed to escape. But you have had a
yucky cold with a gross little runny nose and a bad couch.
And one night you had 101 temp one night and just felt horrible. You slept all morning
and then I treated you to some screen time (Clifford's Puppy Days) and
got out your new favorite toys- the whole box of Fisher Price Little People.
Annie and Graves were neither one interested in them until they were
toddlers (well, Annie didn't know about them until then). You just
seemed so grown up watching a show and playing with Alien and Bride
and their friends.
you recovered quickly. By the next day, you just had a little cough and a
bad runny nose and were a bit grumpy.
Annie asked me if grumpiness is contagious (answer: YES). But it was so
nice to see your signature Sallie smile, especially once I gave you
access to your brother again
could tell you were feeling better because I walked out of the room for
a few minutes and when I came back in you were flat on your tummy on
the plastic box the little people were in, kicking your feet super hard
Your brother and sister are so good to
you. They often make you the conductor of the train and when I got your
exersaucer down from the attic, they put pillows around it and
proclaimed you the captain of the ship. They are so good to her!
I was mopping and Annie suggested I let you be in the train (she and
Graves like to line up the chairs and pretend it's a train) by
strapping you in your high chair. She and Peyton have both started to
enjoy you a lot more now that you are crawling and "can play with us"
as Annie says. She still doesn't like you to touch her because you
drool SO much and it's pretty comical the lengths she'll go to so
that she can engage you without any physical contact.
You and Papa have been taking midnight strolls- to drop off library books, for example. He also
took you swimming at the Y recently with Annie while Graves was having a
special outing with Mickey and Minnie. You had a blast with Papa and
You are such a delightful little person and I know I'm very biased, but I think you are simply an amazing baby.